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A halfway home.

Sun, 07 Mar 2010 16:59:32 -0800

Lately I’ve been really confused on how I would like to portray my digital self. I cannot make my mind up with how I would like my blog/homepage to be. Since I’m such a period of unrest, I am making Tumblr my halfway home between a custom built blog and a fully automated one. I guess.

Pros and Cons

Pros

Tumblr is easy.
I can mess around with the themes or even create my own.
Mobile support on my iPhone so I can blog random things in life without much hassle.
No sysadmin work needed excluding some DNS for a custom domain.

Cons

I don’t have complete control. (eg: Instead of using stuff like Jekyll, Django, or Sinatra)
It’s not as rewarding as running your own build.
Feels a bit like a learning handicap from not having to do any sysadmin stuff.

But oh well..

This should prove interesting, and things could possible change. I just need an easier way to share my ideas and feelings NOW rather than after I get a working blog. Ya know?

At the DMV. Someone please kill me.

Wed, 23 Dec 2009 12:54:10 -0800

At the DMV. Someone please kill me.

Off in the corner of my mind.

Tue, 27 Oct 2009 00:48:44 -0700

Off in the corner of my mind.

Sometimes I wish I could startover. Retry so many things.

Sun, 25 Oct 2009 22:29:44 -0700

Sometimes I wish I could startover. Retry so many things.

Sharks vs Flyers

Sun, 25 Oct 2009 17:32:29 -0700

Sharks vs Flyers

Photo

Sun, 25 Oct 2009 14:19:36 -0700

Audio

Thu, 22 Oct 2009 22:12:06 -0700

Photo

Mon, 19 Oct 2009 19:18:52 -0700

Why hello St Pauli girl. Curious to see you here. In the...

Sun, 18 Oct 2009 01:43:08 -0700

Why hello St Pauli girl. Curious to see you here. In the bathroom. Hmm.

Well, this got fairly boring. Zzz.

Sat, 17 Oct 2009 03:01:00 -0700

Well, this got fairly boring. Zzz.

From the motion picture Miracle. “Herb Brooks”...

Sat, 10 Oct 2009 12:41:15 -0700

From the motion picture Miracle.
“Herb Brooks” Pre-Game Speech.

MUTEMATH - Spotlight (Music Video)

Sat, 10 Oct 2009 12:18:01 -0700

MUTEMATH - Spotlight (Music Video)

But mutemath was pretty sick.

Sat, 10 Oct 2009 03:17:57 -0700

But mutemath was pretty sick.

Poker night. All bets are off— erm, I mean on.

Fri, 09 Oct 2009 22:41:12 -0700

Poker night. All bets are off— erm, I mean on.

Wheat on wood. Oh so good.

Thu, 08 Oct 2009 18:52:01 -0700

Wheat on wood. Oh so good.

And just like that, I say goodbye to the warm summer winds that kept me floating.

Thu, 08 Oct 2009 16:10:06 -0700

And just like that, I say goodbye to the warm summer winds that kept me floating.

My hands are as cold as our dialogue. Chillingly formal.

Thu, 08 Oct 2009 11:49:59 -0700

My hands are as cold as our dialogue. Chillingly formal.

Why am I so unhappy?

Wed, 07 Oct 2009 00:23:20 -0700

Why am I so unhappy?

Current thoughts

Mon, 05 Oct 2009 21:10:00 -0700

Do I miss you? Yes. Very much so. I’m afraid of calling you, because I long for a normal conversation, but I know those are long gone.

Do I feel lonely? Indeed. I’ve been home all day after being cut from work early and I’ve done nothing but sit or lay and think. I think about you, about us, and about me.

Do I feel bad? Of course. I feel terrible, and I continue to second-guess my decision. I have hurt the feelings of many people, but above all, I have hurt your feelings, and that makes me feel the worst.

Do I feel guilty? No, but I have a hard time defending why I don’t feel that way. I know it was a selfish move, I will acknowledge that, but I want to believe it was a move I made for myself. I needed change— I needed something, and I’m not quite sure this was the right move. Time will tell, but unfortunately time is not something I have in common with you anymore.

I miss you so much. I love you so much. You mean the world to me, and I hate to have left you in such a traumatic period of your life. I wish I knew about your situation sooner. You deserve someone to be by your side, and I’m afraid that I am no longer that person. I’ve messed up and I’m positive that there’s no turning back. My assumption is that you guys wouldn’t let me back in. This is an understandable consequence that I will have to deal with.

You have, from what I can tell, deleted your Facebook and Twitter. I am debating the same. At least with the latter. I know I can still reach you by phone and email, but I’m not sure you’re ready to talk to me, or even want to.

But I hope you do. I do not want to loose you. I love you.

Goodbye Hawaii. Hello sick children next to us. Ordering juice....

Sun, 23 Aug 2009 15:59:31 -0700

Goodbye Hawaii. Hello sick children next to us. Ordering juice. Lots of vitamin C please.